(since when He is so smart? XD)

People do have emotions. 

So do I. 

I don't like the feeling which I have to be angry.

which I have to be upset.

which I have to be worry.

which I have to be...ARGH.

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Why are there some people like to Gossip that much!

Why are there some people just can be that selfish!

Why are there some people are so double-faced!

Why are there some people don't keep promises!

Why are there some people don't follow up their responsibilities!

Why are there some people freaks out my mind!

Why are there some other people like to playing around with relationships!

Why are there some people think that you are angry with them if you didn't talk to them!

Why are there some people say they are doomed just because of something that is small!

Why are there some people so crazy over blaming others when everything's going wrong!

Why are there people defining themselves as pessimistic but actually they are not in reality!

Why are there some people ditch their responsibilities only when it's almost deadline for a job to be done!

Why are there some people hoping people to follow up their work and do not have self-initiative!

Why are there some people are just that SICK!

Ya, I know everyone is imperfect.

So do I.

At least I am not one of the above.

Speaking of truth,

I DISLIKE THESE PEOPLE.

Truly,

DISTURBING

&

ANNOYING.

LEAVE ME ALONE.

 

Today, I would like to talk about "Security Challenges for E-Commerce and Ways to Succeed."

eh

wait a second.

XD

I should be writing my blog isn't it?

:P

(still in Presentation Mode. Oops. Side-Effect.)

***

Back to topic.

***

I was the First one to present

and that's a = = for it.

It was a word only to describe my feeling
NERVOUS

from the beginning till the end.

The 5 Minutes of Me...

was like sooooOOOO short...

and Yet....

sooooOOOO long...

I was shivering.

(and yet I can still speak so LOUDLY. = =)

I was forgetting.
(and LUCKILY I can still cope with it. = =)

I was so nervous.

(and my hands SHAKING so obviously. = =)

anyhow,

I AM VERY UNSATISFIED WITH MY PRESENTATION.

SERIOUSLY.

I DID MY SLIDES WELL I THINK.

BUT

I DIDN'T HAVE MY SPEECH WELL-PREPARED.

and that was a ZZ for me.

*Stop talking on that SAD thing, back to my Photo thing. XD*

*All these are captured during the Presentation of other classmates. Hehe. Secretly. Shh. XD*

Big Fat Round Face.

This kinda Loooook. make me feel I'm 20 above.

Advancing to 25 years old with this loooook.

Advancing to 30 years old with this loooook.

Me and Windy.

next,

I consider these girls as our class's (^ 0 ^)

Winnie.

Eva.

and...

WAHAHAHA.

Please don't spit out your food if you're eating when you sees this.

I'm not that Ugly am I?

LOL.

*just Teasing you. XD*

PS: Still don't know about my marks for this Worst Presentation.

Worry all the way till now.

I pray for:

God Bless Everyone to at least Pass this coursework.

( > . < )

and...

I was so frustrated.

It was such a busy period.

Monday - I have my OHR presentation (Organization & Human Resource)
Tuesday - I have my English presentation
Wednesday - I have my OHR test, 60 Multiple Choice Question.
(AND THAT'S SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH STRESS. argh!)

I was not that good in time management.

because...

basically everything that entertains a person

= =lllFrom an early sleeper to a late sleeper.

From an early riser to a late riser.

***

-Skip all the details of Frustration-

***

Luckily with the help of God,

I am able to cope with it.
(Thanks God :D)

But,

at the END,

I ended up with PANDA EYES.

with BAD SKIN.

with SUPER DUPER TIRING BODY.

Anyhow,

I just wanna tell you,

TIME MANAGEMENT is VERY VERY VERY IMPORTANT!

this is because...

I got zZ result of OHR because I don't have enough time to Revise.

(althought many people say: Aiya, very good already la.)Perhaps,

what I expected is too high?

But,

isn't we must aim high?

to achieve high?

(Must be more hardworking. Manage the time well.)

an Advice to Me and for You too,

MANAGE YOUR TIME WELL LA.

:DPS: Am worrying for my presentation scores.

and the coming soon Final Examination.

 (I am going to eat ya. HAHA)

 (EATING in progress.)

(Chewing. = w = By the way, I look STUPID in here. zz.)

Haha.

I'm Done with You.

(Digesting. XD)

Have a Happy Cheese Crackers Day too Ya. :)

These days,

I have my assignments, presentations, and tests that are bothering me.

It's so annoying that I couldn't even concentrate on each thing that I wanna do.

and,

I started to daydream again.

and it's about...

SWEETS!!! 

:P

I remember that one of my friends gifted me a LOLLIPOP.

and I can tell ya

it's too BIG for me. LOL.

(and so... I gave it to my sisters and brother. XD and even them couldn't lick all of it in a Day.)

I Don't like this kinda sweets.

OOO... I loveeee this kinda ''sweet'' :DD

Cupcakes! :)

(but it's like Color more than Cake to me. LOL.)

    

Haha.

YOU again.

CHOCOLATES~!!!

Leggo Gummies!

WOW...

so Inviting. :P

(when can I eat this?? = w =)

This looks not bad either :D

Sweets have a Magical Power that makes a person smiles.

    

Aww....

I WANT THIS ON VALENTINES!!!

Hehe.

(Daydream again = =lll)

I hope my SWEETS touches your heart~!
&

It was a horrible day for this girl.

A day where she was depressed.

Deeply.

Not because of anyone.

But her parents.

Overwhelming her responsibilities. Hoping too much on her. Giving too much of pressure on her.

"You better Do Your Very Best to make us proud. Don't give me Shit of reasons for your straight Bs."

She was so helpless.

She cried and cried and cried.

with nobody beside her,

to comfort her,

to care about her,

or even pity her.

She had to face all these things by herself.

As being not supported,

she tries to confess everything to God.

however,

it is not working out anyway.

A real person might be helpful.

so,

she looked into Facebook.

She viewed Facebook for plenty of times.

Hoping someone would find her for a chi-chat or something that would relief her from being more depressed again as she was not dare to speak to others first.

somehow,

a Guy added her as friend.

and she thought that: "well, one more friend is better right?"

and

It all started since this click.

She liked that guy's photography so much.

She liked almost every album of his.

and this Guy,

he tried to approach this girl with broken heart.

and you know?

a girl with broken heart is easily to accept someone's care,

and 

she will begin to LOVE him.

so on and so forth,

they have found common interest within two of them.

and they began to start a relationship.

They tried to meet each other.

they want to.

Again,

because of the girl's parents,

the girl always find excuses not to meet each other.

She was not worry about how her parents will do to her if they found out.

but,

the one that she worry the most is him.

 She worry that her parents will find him and sue him for "bluffing" her so that he can actually do something that hurts her, out of no where.

It was so sad to her.

that she couldn't even meet her beloved for even ONCE.

she'd really having a hard time.

She wanted to confess all these to him.

however,

when she thinks of him having a lots of work to be done in his office,

she will just escape that part,

and always,

always act that she is happy Whole Day Long.

She was happy when he called her.

She loves his caring voice for her.

She loves his cuteness.

It's really hard to express how much she loves him.

HOWEVER,

he started to complain.

why she always didn't call him or even SMS him.

"My parents can check over my phone bill to trace who had I called upon."

"I worried if they know things between us."

which, she had said so many times.

APPARENTLY,

he doesn't seems to be REALLY cared and note about her words.

sometimes, she thinks that: "Is he my Only One and the Only One..."

whenever he talked like that to her,

she was always DOUBTING.

WONDERING if this is the one that she want to find.

the one that she can RELY ON.

In fact,

he does always ask her to marry him.

almost everyday.

and this girl,

was very confused.

and every time he says that,

she'd actually LOVE it.

she'd actually wanna say YES! I DO! to him.

anyhow,

whenever she thinks rationally,

SHE SAID NO.

and he always say: "I'll be there for you. Waiting for you. until you say Yes to me."

Well,

she was actually crying at that moment he said that.

Tears that are smiling.

but,

she don't want him to hear she's crying.

she hold backs her tears...

and actually smiled.

but,

he couldn't see that.

Perhaps,

this is where the Conflict between this two lovers begins.

He actually didn't REALLY care about her since that she answered NO.

SMS,

from one day almost 50 messages to 0.

Calls,

from one day 1 hour 3 times to 0.

Is all guys LIKE THAT?

this girl

however,

strongly believe that the guy that she liked won't be like the others.

And she was wrong.

that guy slowly leaves her away.

She can feel it.

and she worry almost everyday.

She have bad feelings almost everyday.

and what makes her feel safe is him calling her.

but

NO

there's NO phone calls or even an SMS.

then she tried to call him.

and what happened is,

HE BLAMED HER FOR DIDN'T CALL HIM AND SMS HIM.

at that point of time,

this girl LOSES all her CONFIDENCE on HIM.

She cried again.

but this time,

she will not be able to cry out with tears rolling down her face.

It's because she's too sad,

until that sadness couldn't be expressed out.

all the sweet talks by him to her is echoing in her mind.

every time she thinks of him,

that pain inside of her is so excruciating.

so torturing.

and days by days,

time flows by very quickly.

the girl waited and waited.

when she saw some brands with his name,

she thinks of him, and again it hurts.

when she review back his photographs,

she totally breaks down her mind when there's no one else around her.

Can you imagine...

How much she loves him?

How much he hurts her?

One day,

the girl really couldn't stand this kind of "Cold War" between them.

she decided to make everything clear.

and she sent a message to him.

on her BIRTHDAY.

"You'd wished me Birthday yesterday."

"Thank You for wishing"

"It's my Birthday only on today."

"....."

"I wished that we can make everything clear in between us."

"Is this the end of our relationship?"

the girl FIRMLY decides,

whatever his answer is,

she will accept it.

Her heart was beating extremely fast when she's waiting for his reply.

"I hope he won't be the same as the other guys..."

and finally,

after half an hour,

he replied her.

"Lets end this."

She was totally dissapointed.

and the worst thing is,

He doesn't mention any reason for that.

just like that,

JUST LIKE THAT IT ENDED!!!

It's really harsh for her.

really painful to her.

Being pushed away by her Beloved one.

Again,

her heart is surrounded by sorrows.

Deeper sorrow than before.

She still need to pretend that there's nothing happening to her.

In front of parents,

in front of sisters and brother,

in front of her friends,

enjoy in fake smiles.

...

She is a very cute and beautiful girl.

Many guys like to court her and giving sweet talks to her.

"Can you be my girlfriend?"

"I Love You."

"I Miss You."

"I will promise you to Love You more than Myself."

She was not tempted to accept all these guys already.

She had those bad memories.

that forbids her from being in Love again.

all these is because,

sometime, 

when she saw couples walking around.

She feel very sad.

Those feelings

those scars that he left on her,

it won't just disappear.

She still clearly remember how he say he loves her.

Yet,

it's all Over.

Over.

Perhaps,

far away,

he is already in love with other girls.

Perhaps,

far away,

he is still being misunderstanding to this girl.

the last words that she said was:

"I hope he can find a better one.

that the girl is not considerate as me.

that the girl is not scared that her parents will hurt him as I did.

that the girl is not loving him deeply as I Always Do, till now."

First,

I want to extend my deepest condolences to victims that passed away due to natural disasters that strikes Japan.

It was really a hard time too in Malaysia as what our country's weather forecast also warns us to be aware and be prepared for the next Tsunami happening in Sabah and Labuan.

 

Since yesterday's 6pm till 12am,

my heart beats were so unstable.

I was so worried.

Scared.

and my parents were still working outside,

and yet till 9pm,

they haven't come back.

and it makes me feel even Nervous.

Me, my sisters and brother,

all of us were frightened too when we heard of the bad news coming.

but,

What to Do?

We can't just sit and stare into each others' eyes.

So,

to God,

we prayed for the victims,

we prayed for the other countries that have also been affected,

we prayed for the catastrophe to stop spreading around this beautiful world,

we prayed for all the people to be safe and sound,

we prayed that people will continue surviving in this harsh condition,

and

we prayed to God,

to Lord,

that the Judgement Day will only arrive when everyone is believing in God.

and even though Disasters keeps coming on,

we will never be suffering from it,

as we've already being brought back by God,

back to our origin.

Followed by the Devastating Disasters,

Japan is now facing a crisis where by their economy, is rapidly dropping down.

No one is Poor

and no one is Rich either.

 As what we can read from the papers,

see from the news,

surf on the Internet,

the Earthquake and Tsunami brought huge damages and lost of lives.

Property were nothing more than craps,

Crops were nothing more than dead.

However,

Earthquake that hit Japan and breaks down the buildings,

Tsunami that swirls over the country and wiped off everything,

and even though till today's latest updates that report Japan's Nuclear Plant Exploded massively,

It did not appear to engulf the Japanese hearts to survive.

Red Crosses of their nation is so actively seek to help people in need.

Organizations are trying to supply foods and waters.

Public are also contributing by giving shelters.

the Federal Government also did their part by tying back up the phone lines and whatever that is useful for victims and families to communicate and contact each other.

they'd also use their authority to ask supermarkets,

and other suppliers to supply what they need for their people.

and even though all these costs and instability shakes the Japanese heart,

but,

they are still STRONG to stand up,

and

STRONG to face the reality!

they are setting up Fund-Raising event to get as much of money to cover up the dreadful cost,

giving their best to help each other,

try to stabilize their country down.

All of these are because they have no Fear,

as the Japan rebuilt and came back after an earthquake in Kobe (in 1995).

from this,

We can learn so much from them.

their

Calmness, 

Hospitality, 

Helpful 

and Selfless.

and these are some videos picked from YouTube:

Powerful Quake that Hits Japan

Mad Tsunami sweeping Everything

Nuclear Plant of Japan Exploded

Lets just Do what we can Do.

and Pray.

7th of March.

My Big Big Big Day.

However,

This year's Birthday was SPECIALLY SPECIAL.

I've got THREE DAYS of Celebration. LOL.

The Day Before My Birthday


My Parents celebrated my Birthday earlier.
It's Sunday.
and I have an Apple Fruit Cake for "Make a Wish" session. :D

Mummy cooked two Cute Red Eggs for me.
(anyhow, I ended up eating only ONE. = =lll Another one was eaten by SIS zz.)

and A traditional Chinese style of Noodles.
they called it SHOU MIAN.
what I can say is...



AH, MUMMY IS THE BEST COOK EVER!
(and I ended up with BIG TUMMY. XD)

and I received a Lovely Card from My Family.
(which was so FUNNY. especially for my bro's part. I was BOOMED when I saw what he wrote. = =lll)



The Day On My Birthday


I went to College as usual.
Passed each tutorials and lecture,
and I thought it's just going to be another "same old" Birthday.

Who knows?
I got this from a Lovely friend, Windy.

The Ferrero Rocher.
My Favorite.
THANKS YAH SISTA!

and after that,

My Friends, the whole class sang for me!!! :D
It is very UNEXPECTED!!!
*so Touched and my cheeks were going red. XD*

Thank You!!!
You Guys ROCKS!!!
:P

PS: Someone actually BOOKED me on this Day.
Haha

and I was thinking,
WHERE ARE THEY GOING TO BRING ME TO?

these two person,
is soOO "Mysterious" that they keep on ASKING N ASKING,

"Are you ok with Japanese Cuisine?"
"Do you like cheese cake?"
"Must wear NICE NICE NICE yah!"

Bla Bla Bla.

and Three of Us,
ended up in this restaurant...
"We Want to Take You Home"
LOL.
(it's in KLCC.)

We've ordered three plates of different foods.
I have ordered "Chicken Mushroom Pasta".
(THIS IS YUMMY and I LOVE IT.)
Jasmine asked for "BUTTERFLIED Lemon Chicken".
(THIS IS OK only. Perhaps my taste is different?)
and Ivy chose "XXX Salad"
(XXX = I forgotten what's the name already. :P and THIS IS HEALTHIER. XD)
and a Dessert.
(which is for IVY entertaining purpose. LOL.)

there's one unforgettable moment.
IVY MAKING FUN ON MY FACE.
*with that dessert*
= 3 =

She said she wanna take pictures with me,
and so I did,
but the thing is,
She got a spoonful of Chocolate Mousse to feed me as the Pose,
and I was then ended up with Chocolate on my Nose.
AND EVERYONE OF US LAUGHED SO LOUDLY!!!

PS: No one has done that to me, so, Thank You :') as experience.

*Thank You again for the Wonderful and Tasty Meal YA :)*

after that we had Movie titled "Beastly" together.
the main Actor is super Cute!!! :P
I think I'm in Love with him.
Hehe~

But,
as Jasmine and I, wore short dress to there,
We are FREEZING from the beginning till the end.
XD

to Conclude this day,
I would love to THANK GOD!
for His lovely gift to me :D
that is this two Friendly Friend :)

"Praise You, My Lord."

After that,
we took a Cab back to hostel.

Am going to attend a Prayer's meeting with Jasmine and Ivy.

when I was there,
Bong Yang suddenly ask me,
"Is it your Birthday today?"
I said: Ya.
then Patrick, a funny guy with him straight away sing loudly:
Patrick: "ONE-TWO-THREE-FOUR!!!"
P. and B.Y.,
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU"
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU"
and suddenly Patrick sing,
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO what's your name again?" > o < lll

SUPER FUNNY LA = =lll

then I said: Joanne.

then these two guys,
REPEATED THE WHOLE THING WITH THE RIGHT NAME FOR DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES. and, honestly, the Guitar accompany is a bit out of tune. LOL.

BUT ANYHOW...
THANK YOU VERY MUCH TO EVERYONE 
THAT SANG FOR ME :D

*and I wonder how Bong Yang know that it's my Birthday that day.*


and we all prayed to God.
Love You, my Lord.






The Day After My Birthday
or My New Life Birthday


I've become a Christian since this day.
Thanks to God who Leads me all the way to Him.
Let me know how much He loves me.


and I'd always Praise Him,
My Lord.


"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son."
John 3:16


and then
after I prayed,
haha
He does show that he loves me.
:D


I got this, haha CHOCOLATES AGAIN!!!
Wee~~~
and it's so beautifuly packed :D



I like it very very muchie~!
Thank You Set Ye. XD
(Ah... my face is so ROUND... = 3 = Choco's Effect. XD)


and Jasmine gave me this Book of hers.
as ANOTHER present from her to me for my New Life Birthday.
haha.
It's nice to Read!
and so Inspiring.
Thanks ;)


and also My Father, My Lord.



^-^ 
Well, that's all about my Birthdays.






and the following day,
I made this with RM 8.
A little tiny contribution that I can afford to society.
It's hand-made by handicapped.
:')
Pretty isn't?




Ah,
This whole week is just Unforgettable,
that I will always Remember.