Kinda lazy to post any interesting things in my personal circle lately. It's like 'spider-webbing' all around here.

Same old thing as usual.

You read, you study, you do your homework, you rush your assignment, have conflicts with friends, have happy time doing tests and sad time receiving the results. Have I not mentioned that, the sparkliest event in academic life of mine for this semester is that I'd actually indirectly, partially, softly, nicely have a 'conversation' with my Financial Management lecturer, Mr. Ong.

In fact, my friend, Windy and I was just asking about some doubts in our discussion of the way of solving some questions. Both of us was like shivering when we are asking him the particular question. And somehow, I forgotten how we ended up with a question back from him where he asked us to feedback on his lectures' style.

I am really kinda straight-forward! ==

You know what did I say? I said something which I think it's out of my mind.

"Mr. Ong, you are too harsh on people who actually love to present themselves in front of everyone and having confidence in this subject becoming demotivated of your 'overloaded' comments."

WTH.

I thought that is the end of my life to study. I am totally out of my mind! In my heart, it was like beating faster than a train's speed! Windy was looking at me and her look was like: Girl, you're so doomed.

Ya, definitely. I'm doomed.

However, it turns out to be the other way round. I thought Mr. Ong will actually look at me with a serious and 'I wanna eat you up' face. He did sincerely admit that he is a person who teaches that way. As what he tells us everytime, he thinks that if he uses the soft method, students will not learn. All the way long, he was just keep it by his way. Windy and I was actually nodding head, agree upon his 'statements'.

But again, I don't know how I ended up of telling him again, to enforce that he is actually 'over-harsh' to those presenters.

I said: "But don't you think that they will be demotivated? They was brave enough to stand alone in front of hundred pairs of eyes and present as best as they can. Some may be praised by you but some was being stressed out as you keep on 'shooting' them and signaling that their not good enough, bad presentation and so on. Some may take it seriously and may be demotivated to continue to build his interest in studying this subject."

Windy was looking at me with her big big eyes and now it was bigger. It signals to me that oh no, girl, you are so SO DOOMED. And I thought I was.

Somehow, he did not defend himself. He was just stop for a second, then continue to express that he was actually wants us to learn, to actualy understand and not to memorize things. He want us to be outstanding. I know and everyone knows it. I feel I'm like a jerk saying all those comments upon his way of teaching. I realized that every lecturers have their own way to teach. And really I feel so sorry.

In the next lecture, he really takes into account of what I'd said to him. I was sick that time and wasn't able to attend lecture. From what I know, Windy said that he was not that harsh anymore. Don't know why, I feel very bad. But at least, those presenters will not be demotivated as presenters before. I sincerely thanks Mr. Ong for this. :')

Trillion Thanks, Mr. Ong!

(hmm, I have no money to gift him so, I snap this down as a representative of the real thing. :P)

Keep It Simple Stupid, K.I.S.S. - learnt it from Mr. Ong. *\(^o^)/*

My new hobby.

My new activity.

and I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

[although it used up money very QUICKLY.]

[but...]

[I'm kinda addict to it.]

[OOOPPPPSSS.]

[= = ~ XD]

Saw many beautiful clothes yesterday.

many pretty Office wears.

of course.

the PRICE also very EXPENSIVELY EXPENSIVE.

"why mummy and daddy choose to go for such an expensive place to shop?!"

(blabbering....)

HEHE.

anyhow,

I used up their money worth hundreds and hundreds.

just to fill up my wants.

(Sorry, I will return twice more to you in future! T w T)

and also my wardrobe.

:P

Bought things that I usually won't buy.

Costly.

Happily.

XD

Will have a new suit for new semester's presentation.

*Will be revealed soon. :)*

PS:

Hubby,

this blog is specially to inform you...

about my new "changes" and "hobby"...

Erhemm.

You know what to do right?

Start to save money!

and hand it in to my hands.

(Bwahahhahaha. ♥ ♥ ♥)

I Still ♥ You!

and also my hobby. 

(emm. still not sure why I suddenly changed. and addicted to shopping recently. LOL.)

♥ My Bear and I. ♥

Mr. Bear have accompany me for so long, till now.

I realized that I didn't have a picture with him before.

and So,

I had it today~ :)

Hmm.

Since I was five years old or younger,

I was 'trapped' to sleep in my own room.

It was gifted by my mum to chase away all my fears (when I'm sleeping = =lll).

Back to the past,

I was talking to Mr. Bear.

Whole night until I fall asleep.

The moments I spent with it was so purely naive and childish :P

(And how I wanted to go through that time once more... haih)

Emm.

and Why I would want to be so?

Perhaps I am so SICK OF being an almost-adult.

So many liars,

So many rumors,

So many gossips,

So many conflicts...

I, was a kid.

and I hope to be a kid.

Freed from any problems...

(Sarcastic.)

When I was a kid,

I hope to be a grown-up.

When I am a grown-up,

I wish to be a kid!

(Really sarcastic! = =lll)

***

By the way,

main point that I wanna say is:

- I really am not a kid anymore T ___ T -

cause...

My body now is bigger than my Mr. Bear!

(= =lll)

Solely.

For love.

and love itself.

I clearly remember.

You promised me.

You'll always be there for me.

And I know that you're gone.

Far away.

I.

I just hope that you'll think of me.

I thought I'll never have.

I remember that day.

With the smiles you had.

Now I remember,

how it was the dream that you're the one for me.

It was so,

in to me.

I'll be there for you.

Always.

I just hope,

You'll think of me.

As time went on,

you walked away from me.

I couldn't help but think that I wasn't good enough.

It's not what it used to be.

I'll be there for you.

And I promise you this.

I'll be there for you.

When you leave me when I'm all alone.

And I know that you're gone.

I just hope,

You'll think of me.

I'll never forget.

Main reason for every KIND of failure is almost because of a word:

(anyhow, I'm gonna expressed more of my stand in the view of LOVE for today.)

hmmm.

where to start.

OK,

my feelings first.

why?

they do not really UNDERSTAND each other.

(or one of the party.)



hmmm.
truthly speaking.



I've seen a lot of couples hanging around.
Lookin' so sweet.
Lookin' so happy.
&
I've seen a lot of couples broke up too.



People nowadays are always self-centered.
Everything must be done according to their wishes IF it is possible.
even LOVE too.
(haih.)


Perhaps, most of:

the boys may actually uses his "sweet languages" to make you feel happy,
make you feel worth to hang out with him,
make you FALL IN LOVE with him.

the girls may actually so naive and believe the boys.
you may give your ever precious first kiss to him,
and then being ignored by him after sometimes.



They say, this is MODERN LOVE.
(I mean, what is this kinda unreliable love.)
(it just going to ruin what LOVE is really meant to be.)

It should be truly and purely two persons fall in love,
(doesn't matter it's first-sight love, childhood love, etc. XD)
with their belief that they will maintain till the end.

and NOT for excitement purpose.
NOT blindly following the so-called LOVE trend.
NOT for anything else except the LOVE.

purely.




Young couples usually don't know how to appreciate what they have.
I admit.
Sometimes I do so.
(at least I realize XD)

They always say I LOVE YOU.
without knowing what that really mean.
for the sake of saying it.

= = lll

When you really LOVE someone,
you will know that,
it's hard to speak out that THREE WORDS.
(now that's purely sweet :P)

they may have given you many promises that ended up not realizing it but a break-up message or whatever.
(WHATEVER. = =)

I think you faced this before too right?

they ask and request you to do this and that,
then when you do these and those,
they COMPLAIN.

= =lll

(then what for you ask?)

that's not the end.
they still scold you like you done everything WRONG.
like you disturbed him/her.




people say LOVE is complicated.



now I say,
it's because:
Contradiction happens,
to one of the party in the couple.

Even friends,
if they have communication problems.
A very very best friend will no longer be a friend.
A waste isn't it?

Speak nicely to each other. 
Alright?
:D


Back to LOVE,
it's a huge loss!!!



Being in love and loved by another is a fate.
plus,
if you really love that person,
try to communicate better.
take off all the possibilities that will block you and him/her to a better future!



APPRECIATE!

I've done everything just for good marks.

and it's not only for myself but also for my group members.

Come On = =

 

It's already in the corner of submission date.
Not everyone can gather around together to have a meeting.
I believed in you guys,
I allocate everything to everyone.
Everyone did do their job.
Everyone did hand-in to me well.
On time.
Efficient.
but
Not so Effective.

and so,
its my time to do what a leader should do.
I combined everything.
I checked every single mistakes for three times and perhaps, above.

I wanna ask,
"Is it wrong to change your contents? If it's irrelavant?"

FINE.
You are pissed off just because I changed the things.
You think that you've everything correctly.

FINE.
You are mad at me just because I didn't inform you to CHANGE IT AGAIN.
and I done every amendments.

DID I EVER COMPLAINT?
DID I EVER SCOLD YOU?
DID I EVER MAKE YOU CRY?

I DID NOT.

FINE.
You misunderstand my meaning.
You thought that I think I am brilliant enough, and thus changes all of your contents.

I TELL YOU.
IF I HAVE A CHOICE,
I WOULD RATHER YOU TO DO EVERYTHING ACCORDINGLY.
PROPERLY.

AND WHY AM I LIKE THAT?

TIME.

just as simple as that.

as you know,
assignments have a dateline.

I do not want to spend twice of available time,
just waiting,
AGAIN,
edit,
AGAIN.

I do not have much time to explain furthermore of:
What you should do.
What you have to do.
What you need to search to fulfill the requirement of the questions.



PLEASE.
JUST UNDERSTAND.


You have your Point-of-View,
I have my own Point-of-View.



You might be mad at me.
and I might be mad at you at the same time.

WHY MAKE LIFE SUCH A DIFFICULT THING?

CONFLICTS HERE AND THERE.
DARE TO SAY BEHIND.
NOT DARE TO SAY IN FRONT OF ME.



IF YOU JUST DO NOT LIKE MY WAY OF DOING THINGS,
JUST TELL ME.
TELL ME SO THAT I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL.
I AM NOT YOU.
SO
HOW WOULD YOU EXPECT ME TO KNOW HOW YOU REALLY FEEL!

JUST TRY,
TO SEE IT
FROM SOMEONE ELSE'S Point-of-View.

(It's a cafeteria in our college. Managed by Hotel Management course pupils and lecturers.)

(and we ended up here :P Hee...)

Bright Day.

Started with a Love Song.

Loving Sun.

Warming Shines.

and

Missing.

Something is missing.

and I hate it.

and I

Wonder how did you conquer my heart.

Wonder how did you make me fall deeply into you.

Thinking.

Over and over again.

Searching for the reason.

and I found.

You make me Smile :)

You make me Sad :(

You even make me Angry

You make me Care so much

You make me feel peaceful with you.

You make me feel safe :D

Love is everywhere.

Whenever I'm with you.

and You won't be my Everything... :)

and

Just, Love.